I searched all my life
for reasons; they were hidden.
I've been thanked, loved, beaten,
but not forgiven.
"Blessed are they that are not afraid,"
and as I look at you, I know,
here I'm weak, here you're brave.
I judged with a fist
and a stony face, and gavel;
I babbled on like a lawyer,
but you welcomed my drivel.
And with an open heart, you let me in,
accepted back to where I belong.
No-one else knows where I've been.
I loved like a lost wolf:
your bitemarks, my rack of lamb.
Full moon is come, there's no infection;
my love, oh, you still stand.
And with your hand you do absolve me,
tame the beast, so he believes
that all else is raindrops;
you're the sea.
The Lost Wolf
Rats Don't Run for Fun
You say I'm the rat;
I say I'm the wheel.
No cage could hold me in
or halt the way I feel.
I invented love on your behalf;
Apollo played his harp;
Rome and Greece burned down
as I serenaded in the dark.
You say I'm the rat;
I say, well, look again.
My tail is gone, as you see,
and my tale doesn't have an end.
Seven years will pass,
famine will take hold of Earth,
but I will eat my hoard of grain
while I wander, wait, and curse.
You say I'm the rat;
I say the rat is dead.
Scientists will come and go,
but I'll just go to bed.
I put on clothes, my Sunday Best,
to worship gods that are not there.
I ran upon my wheel till dawn
and realized that no-one cares.
Subjects: animals , introspective , poetry
Zoo
[Note: this poem is an abecedarian - a 26-line poem where each line begins with a successive letter of the alphabet.]
After the darkness breaks, and
before the violent armies
clash at sunrise, will you
dally to watch them, to
engage them? Will you open your breast to
fear and let it
gorge itself upon you? Or will you
hinder its progress, deny its
impact, believe that true
justice is easy, that the
kindling for a
luscious flame is
mediocrity? It is
not. It never was. The
object is
peace, the
quiet peace of the
rested, of the weary, of the
singularly afraid that extend their arms to
touch, and through touching, to
understand: life is not
violent. Life is not a
war. Life has no
xplanation.
you and I are bestial, trapped in this
zoo, fantasizing that we’re free.
~04/09
Subjects: animals , form , introspective , poetry
Animalia - The Pandas, The Toucan, Vitiligo (The Butterfly), The Lioness
*Important Note: these poems are diverse entities and should not be read as a coherent aggregate, unless you decide that the animalia theme merits an interpretation based upon a sexual maturation process simulated by the chronological progression of the poems. This note is bullshit*
The Pandas
Curled in blue pandas and bottomless beds,
glow-in-the-dark stars overhead;
there is no crib and no baby blue
worn carpet with a prune perfume.
Slim silent trophies gesturing, moving
closer, their shaken shadows looming
larger and larger on the moonlit walls,
the anorexically thin acoustic stalls
that assist the singers who steal my sleep
in discordant duets between wolf and sheep.
Howling in communion, my voice
is unheard beneath my timid toys,
so I hold blue pandas close to my chest,
with glow-in-the-dark stars overhead.
The Toucan
I broke the beak off the balsawood toucan
that talked to me incessantly from her perch
on my bedside shelf; I took that green bitch
and I snapped her pouting pursed mouth
off like the stem from a banana.
I was content for a week before I glued her
back together; after that she always talked
with a lisp.
Vitiligo (The Butterfly)
She was on top,
undulating like an inchworm on a leaf,
trying to metamorphose.
I held her nascent wings tentatively,
disinterested until
I spotted a pale membrane rotating
on her left ribcage,
and for the first time, I entertained her
fantasy.
She asked – I said,
you have a birthmark; she rolled
away in silence.
Perhaps she thought it could pull
her butterflight down,
but she was already grounded, and I
can no longer picture
her face, but I see the smudge on her side
perfectly.
The Lioness
When you nuzzle,
when you knead,
when you splash your scent
into my mangled mane,
when you play your tail
and raise your haunches,
remember:
I have a barbed penis.
-02/03/09